Many of you may not realize, I have been living deep in the depths of despair off and on for the past year. After losing my brother, I clawed to keep keep my head above the ground.
In December, the most amazing thing happened to me. I found Peppermint Patty. Bringing her home was the happiest day of my life!
But she was very unhappy here and though we tried desperately for months to resolve the situation, I lost her. Because I was already dealing with the loss of my brother and had no idea this was going to happen, along with my mom battling lung cancer, my sister breast cancer, my own daily struggles and several other things, I was thrown into a pit. She is a part of my soul. I love her beyond words.
I share these things for 3 reasons:
1) Not to ask for pity, but to be honest about what I am going through and ask for prayer.
2) To voice my frustration with the reality of isolation due to my illness and chemical injury. I am unable to attend church or go to many (if any) functions and miss out on holidays. The hardest part is not having that fellowship time with friend and family.
3) To encourage change! It doesn’t have to be this way! We have steps that are simple for most to make it possible for me to be a part of the lives of others. Don’t give up on me. Don’t give up on anyone living with illness and chemical injury.
A lot of people have told me to stay strong. With the grace of God, I have been a very strong person and have been through much more than people know. I will get there.
A special Thank You to Kelley Harding for taking such great care of Peppermint Patty and making her a very happy baby.
Lyrics “My Heart is Broken” by Evanescence:
I will wander until the end of time
Torn away from you
I pulled away to face the pain
I close my eyes and drift away
Over the field
That I will never find a way
to hear my soul
And I will wander until the end of time
Torn away from you
My heart is broken
Sweet dreams my dark angel
Deliver us from sorrow’s hold
From my heart, heart
I can’t go on living this way
I can’t go back the way I came, change of this field
That I will never find the way
to hear my soul
And I will wander until the end of the time
Half alive without you
My heart is broken
Sweet dreams my dark angel
Deliver us
Change
Open your eyes to the light
I’ve been denying so long
Oh so long
Say goodbye, goodbye
My heart is broken
Release me, I can’t hold on
Deliver us
My heart is broken
Sweet dreams my dark angel
Deliver us
My heart is broken
Sweet dreams my dark angel
Deliver us from sorrow’s hold
